Today is day like most Saturday's. I sit on my couch and work on homework and watch chick flicks. There are many things in which are going on in my life and all seem to balance a top the very small beam as to which I have put them. None of them to be of bother to me or to be causing me a great deal of stress but, I am very aware that they are there. With that being said it was a nice change to sit and practice the exercises for this week. The first was practicing the universal loving kindness exercise. To start repeating the mantras came easily and flowed as if a soft breeze whispering in my ear. After a spell though the mantras faded away but, the feelings of being up lifted and at ease remained. It was a pleasant task to sit there and wish well to others.
The next exercise too was a nice change though an interesting outcome occurred. As I sat in stillness and reflected upon my integral assessment I came to discover that my Interpersonal aspect was the one that needed some work. I was not expecting this as I try very hard to keep my relationships with self, family, friends and community in tact. I do think that my intimate relationships are truly on the mend, I have had a series of unhealthy relationships and have been hurt in the process but, I have since worked through those issues and have become more aware of self and appreciation for myself and for the people in my life. I have had to learn what it is I truly need in a romantic partner and it has nothing to do with them but, what they bring to the entire table of my existence. I no longer need the embrace of another person to be content or happy. I do plan to try the intimacy and spiritual union exercise in our book. Along with that I plan to try and work on allowing my heart and mind to be more open to myself and those around me and paying attention to where my relationships are and how I can help shift them.
In light of the day
Ramsie
Ramsie, I really like what you are saying about personal relationships, and I can identify with being hurt by unhealthy relationships. It's really difficult to put that in the past and trust a new and different person will not behave the same way. I like how you've decided to appreciate and focus on yourself. I think that's so important because once you realize what is important to you and what type of person can compliment you as a person, you are in a much better position to find a healthy interpersonal relationship. This is great advice for anyone in a similar situation.
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